This was not always the case, though. For almost three decades, my life was consumed with fear. The only thing is, I was unaware of it. I wouldn’t have said I was fearful; I would have said I was social, outgoing, busy and always up for an adventure. But what I did fear, and later discovered was the compass for my choices, was the fear of abandonment and not feeling worthy. I feared not being accepted for who I was; I feared the judgement, criticism, and not being enough. So, I masked parts of me.

This led to years of questioning who I was, what I wanted and where I fit in this world. I lived my life not taking accountability for how I showed up in situations. I avoided anything my mind deemed as hard and ensured I was always busy. I listened to the stories in my mind, telling me I was not enough, unlovable, and powerless to change it.

Fast forward to 2018, externally, I looked like I had my s**t together. I was climbing the corporate ladder; I was social and travelled regularly. I had purchased my first home on my own (hello, strong, independent woman. A mask that has been the hardest to remove), and externally, I was living up to what I perceived success to be. Externally, I felt I had made it. I was grateful for the life I had created, but the inner critic was louder than ever. I had everything I wanted and yet, internally I was miserable. And that is when life threw me another curveball. The company I worked for went into administration, and my life felt like it was turning upside down yet again. After the shock and the fear of what was to come subsided. I paused and asked, what do I want for the rest of my life? My mind said, just find a similar role, it’s safe, and my gut was screaming to do something different.

I saw career counsellors, I did personality test after personality test, and I’m still not sure how it landed in front of me, but coaching felt like a good fit; this was after I studied my Cert IV in Personal Training because I listened to those around me and thought that was the safer option. What I thought coaching was and what it turned out to be blew my mind. Suddenly, I started to understand myself for the first time in my life. What I learnt through my accreditations sent me on my own inner work journey with a coach. For the first time in my life, I felt an inner calm and acceptance of who I am, what I wanted and where I fit. Studying and embodying the work made me aware of how much my inner world created my reality. These were the beliefs I held, the thoughts I chose to focus on, my habits, behaviours, the stories I created and my responses to the feelings and triggers within my body. Knowing this empowered me. It empowered me to step out of my own way and support other women to do the same.

Welcome to a space where I will tell you that what you want is possible. I believe life will always life us, and yet we get to choose what we make it mean and how we respond. I believe we are the only ones standing in our own way from experiencing everything life has to offer, and I believe you are strong, worthy, and enough of everything you want to create in this lifetime.